As the title indicates, I have a confession. So last year I totally thought I was dying. I mean for real.
In 2012 at some point, I don't know when, I started getting tired and very achy all the time, so tired that I could barely function and so achy that I could barely sleep. I was also in this huge brain fog and couldn't remember things or think clearly. All of it was really bad. The hubs had to miss a lot of work. The house was a mess. I had to lay on the couch all day long, and going upstairs was a huge task which required a break midway through.
I had some female stuff happening that automatically made me think that I had cancer of some female sort. For a few days before I got my appointment, I seriously was imagining dying and leaving my kids and husband behind, and I kept crying (I'm not a crier, y'all).
So I got that checked out, and it was just benign fibroids. Alright then, so check! What now?
I had some blood work done, and there was a positive result for autoimmune illness. Of course. That made sense. It would explain all of the fatigue and achiness for sure, even the restless legs I had been experiencing at bedtime.
After a couple of months I had finally gotten an appointment with a rheumatologist, did more (better) blood work, and found out a few weeks later that the original test resulted in a false positive. Are you freaking kidding me? I mean, I was glad, but why the heck didn't they tell me that that test has a false positive rate of about 40%? Why even do the test? Anyway, I was healthy as a horse, and he was surprised to even be seeing me, as his usual patients are in quite a bad state. So good! Check! Now what?
I went back to my general practice doctor, did some allergy testing, and was about to schedule an echo-cardiogram at his suggestion. I knew it was overkill, but I was desperate. I was still feeling terrible, and I knew it wasn't all in my mind. I had to give up my dream of running a marathon, and I quit exercising entirely as there was no way in Hades I could even walk a mile.
The allergy testing said that I had a bunch of tree allergies, pollen, and a few others like dogs and cats and dust and cockroaches (probably a good allergy to have). But the girls in the office were like, 'Yeah, really everyone has those.' And I was like, 'Yeah, no big deal.' They wanted to me to do immunotherapy to get over the allergies, but after the shock at how much just the testing was (we're a high-deductible family, y'all), I just wanted to get out of there before they could put their hands any further down my pockets.
So I blew it off. Surely allergies couldn't cause me to feel this terrible?
Soooo.....this Spring rolled around....and yeah.....I was getting knocked out again - fatigue, aches, brain fog. I just thought, 'I'm not eating well enough, and my immune system is weak.' So I went and got a ton of vitamins and whatnot to boost my immune system. I don't know if it worked, but if it did, it was like a bandaid on a broken arm.
I was really starting to feel hopeless, defeated, and depressed again because I felt so terrible. Finally, a lightbulb came on, and I thought, why don't I just get some Claritin and see if it helps (I had tried Benadryl already, and it hadn't). Two days on Claritin, and I was completely back to normal.
I've been taking it daily for a couple weeks now. I know it's not a good longterm solution, but it's sure a relief right now!
Last year when I was feeling horrible, did my mother-in-law call it by saying it was probably allergies? Yes, yes, she did. Am I a complete idiot? Well, it's highly debatable, I'd say. ;)