I'm still very shocked and simply can't believe it. There's no sense to make of it because it's completely absurd and nonsensical. Evil and utterly revolting.
I'm certain that yesterday will be one of those days that we remember for the rest of our lives. I still remember where I was when the Columbine tragedy happened, and I know that this day will no doubt be etched in my memory as well, maybe more so since I have kids that age.
My first grader was actually home from school with the flu, and I was never so happy for him to have the flu because I just wanted all my babies with me. Since I was home, Facebook was a good community for me to debrief and digest the horror together. My sweet friend Erica reminded me of this quote from a recent post:
Then the thought occurred to me that perhaps God put an innate fear of death in us humans so that we would try to live as long as we could because if we really knew how much we were going to love Heaven we wouldn't try that hard to survive. November 7, 2012Please don't read that as insensitive in light of the tragedy. I surely didn't write it with this horrific event in mind. But it does make me think of how my kind, loving, bigger than life, Heavenly Father is holding those kids in His everlasting arms right now, comforting them and loving them and hiding them in the shadow of His wings.
And then I was also reminded of this post last year when tragedy struck my family:
At the retreat I was on, the retreat director (an amazing 77 year old woman of God and former therapist) said that when people would ask her why God allowed bad things to happen her response was always that the best gift that God could give us was free will. And sometimes people use that free will to make bad choices. Sometimes those bad choices affect other people.
...My prayer for all of the families and friends of the victims is that they would feel the loving and comforting arms of our Heavenly Father right now.
And the thing I always hold onto when bad things happen to good people and you want to ask, "Why did God allow that to happen," is that God never promised us that bad things wouldn't happen; in fact He promised us quite the opposite. He said we'd definitely have trouble in this world, but we can take heart in Him. He can be our comfort, our shelter, our peace, our kind, loving Father. And then there's Heaven....ah, Heaven, the ultimate place of peace for the weary soul. November 8, 2011
God, help this nation. Mamas, hug your babies. Love and peace to all of you.