The silent retreat that I went to a couple of weekends ago was so skillfully designed. The spiritual director, Liz, that led the retreat was such a wise woman. She didn't preach or twist our arms, but she led. She led me into hearing God's voice speaking to me specifically. So when she did a talk on balance, I heard God speaking to me about the priorities in my life loudly and clearly!
First she said that, "Burnout [that's what I was in] is a result of being out of balance." Okay, got it. So what do I do about that? She then asked, "What needs to be emptied from your cup so that God can fill it up?" So I started really thinking about my priorities and what fills my days.
I won't go into all of it, but blogging was definitely something that I analyzed. I love blogging; I really do. It fills a need in me to express myself creatively. I love writing. I'm a grammar nerd. I love thinking about life. I love sharing what I learned. So okay, check - it's a priority.
But as many of my fellow bloggers know, if you want followers, sometimes you have to read a whole bunch of other blogs, too, as a means of networking to grow your own blog. This can be quite daunting, especially when there are 100+ posts in your Reader each night. There started to be many of which I would just look at the pictures or would skip entirely.
It's frankly too much for me to keep up with. So I started asking myself why I was doing it. Well, I do certainly have a specific set of blogs that I read religiously - a mix of family, friends, bloggy friends, and favorite blogs that inspire me. All of the blogs that I follow are good, and I really enjoy them, but I just can't justify spending the time on them anymore, especially when I could be doing other things that would be more fulfilling for me and my family.
And here's the other deal. You know how all these big bloggers say that you have to network and do linky parties and comment and yada yada yada? Well, doesn't that just get you followers that are already bloggers? So you just have a large group of bloggers that are following each other for the sake of having a large following? It doesn't quite make sense to me. Why run yourself ragged for that? Because you know that all of those other blogger/followers are just skipping through your blog posts, too. Do you know how many times I've gotten comments that the commenter so obviously didn't even read the post (but they commented because they wanted me to feel obliged to visit their blog)? Don't you want mostly non-blogger followers?
And what's the point for me anyway? I don't get any cash out of the deal. So I'm running myself ragged for...a number in my sidebar? A high number of pageviews in my stats that no one sees except me? Pride, perhaps?
So anyway, all that to say that I'm cutting back on the amount of blogs that I follow. Please don't be offended, but I gotta do what I gotta do. And you do, too. :) So like I said, if you're a family, friend, bloggy friend, or blog that inspires me, then I'm going to keep following, so no worries. ;) If you're feeling like me at all, though, I do urge you to honestly answer for yourself, "What's the point?"
P.S. You can apply this to Facebook and Twitter, too. Eeek!
ETA: I'm a little concerned that I came across as ungrateful for my current readers/followers. I promise you I'm not. I love that people actually want to read something that I thought about and wrote. It humbles and blesses me more than you could ever know. I just wanted to admit my failing - that I was following TOO many blogs just for the sake of getting more followers, and that's pride. Boo for pride. :(