So first I'll mention my new digs. For those of you reading on Facebook, I got a new layout for my blog. The old west theme was, uh, really ugly, and I'm embarrassed that I didn't really realize it until recently.
So I was thinking the other day, and I realize that I'm over-thinking it, but I'll share anyway...I wish I was a hugger. You know what I mean? I mean, I hug my family but not really many others, unless they initiate, of course. I don't think about it every time I see someone, just when other huggers are around. Some people always hug when they see other people, but I just don't. I usually want to, but I just assume that the other person doesn't want to, so I withhold. And then also I don't know if there are hugging norms of which I'm unaware, like you should only hug if you haven't seen the person in a long time or if you're close friends. But I've received some hugs from people that are not close friends, and it feels normal. When I initiate it, though, it just doesn't feel right. I just feel stupid.
And then there's kissing. I love it when people give a cheek kiss, but not everyone can pull it off. Like if I all of the sudden started hugging and kissing people they might think I only had a few months to live or something. And that's the problem; you can't just change your mind all of the sudden on the matter. You can't just go from not kissing and hugging to doing it all of the sudden because then it's all awkward for everyone. I think you have to start out relationships hugging so that you're known as a hugger and it's not off-putting.
It seems like I was a hugger at certain times in my life, but then some self-consciousness was piqued somewhere along the way. Uh-oh! A little self-discovery might be waiting in the wings. Hehe.